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I'll take it

If all I get is one afternoon with you in a public place... cold bathroom tile followed by coffee and a chat about music... I'll take it -- knowing that you're at home, with your boyfriend, as I write this. I'll take it -- as I look at the naked picture you sent to me years ago (when you were single) and wonder why we never got together. I'll take it -- even though in a few days (or hours), the thought of our encounter will probably send me into a tailspin of loneliness. Which came first: the lowered expectations, or the tendency to process tiny scraps of intimacy as bliss?

want

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I've had a conceptualization lately of want as an electrical circuit: it's either open or closed. On or off. The phrase "I don't know what I want" strikes me as absurd. When you want (or don't want) something, you'll know it. Want is positive or negative, but not neutral. "I don't know what I want for dinner" means you can't decide what to order from the menu. There's a big difference between indecision and want . I want the steak. I don't want the deep-fried parmesan [gag]. Don't say "I don't know what I want to order," but rather, "I can't decide what to order." I tried explaining this to my brother a few weeks ago, and he asked if I had been smoking pot.

flustered

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One of my flaws is that I tend to drop the curve balls life throws at me. Then again, I was never good at sports. "Karen, the gays don't catch." (Grace, in Will & Grace ) Yesterday was a long day for me. Up at 5:30 a.m. and out the door by 6:15 to pick up a coworker, then off to the airport area where we met a bus as part of an organized day trip for our job. The coworker is new, straight, and smokin' hot. I was looking forward to getting to know him. I find out he's of Lebanese descent, and I immediately start picturing this: After a 380 km (round-trip) bus ride and the rest of the day's events, we were back to the meeting point just after 7 p.m. Walking through the parking lot, we see that my car has a flat tire. Not a big problem: there's air in the spare, and I've changed a few tires in my life. Coworker is new to the procedure, so he lends a hand and learns a few pointers from the gay guy. Still, I'm annoyed at the flat and I j

LOL! anthropomorphism!

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I know it's not Caturday , but I couldn't resist ducktoring up this cute image of a duckling chasing an insect. The LOLcats phenomenon has wore down my historical opposition to intentional Internet misspelling. I have a daily belly-laugh at icanhascheezburger . Those crazy kids!