Wednesday, June 20, 2007

I'll take it

If all I get is one afternoon with you in a public place... cold bathroom tile followed by coffee and a chat about music...

I'll take it -- knowing that you're at home, with your boyfriend, as I write this.

I'll take it -- as I look at the naked picture you sent to me years ago (when you were single) and wonder why we never got together.

I'll take it -- even though in a few days (or hours), the thought of our encounter will probably send me into a tailspin of loneliness.

Which came first: the lowered expectations, or the tendency to process tiny scraps of intimacy as bliss?

24 comments:

Snooze said...

It must be something in the air right now. I can so relate to this.

But listen darlin', don't sell yourself short.

car@ said...

NOOO NOOO NOOOO! dun take it!! please Madame, value yourself much!! YOU are SO worth it! You deserve ONLY the best. Be with someone for a coupple of hours, at the end it is not worth it. Been there too, so maybe my voice will help a lil' bit to get the picture better.

HUGS!!! :-)

Salem said...

:::SMACK:::

fatrobot said...

this is about butchie isn't it?

Timmy said...

I am with Salem, smack some sense into you!

Butchieboy said...

You said you deleted those pictures. SLUT.

tornwordo said...

lol butchie. I'm all about lowered expectations. Much easier to get laid that way.

Jack said...

You, my friend, have to accept how great you are.

Jason said...

Tell me seeing every gay person you've ever known in t-minus 3 days... tick...tick...

Mitzzee said...

its' a big ball of debaucherous lust this weekend with you and every x lover you've ever seen....i don't have that problem, but it should be fun to watch. no really mloyd....think about it, it's every PERSON OUR AGE that is single, not just gay, we're all in the same boat....we need to get over it and be happy with our friends and family, honestly the "butterfly" love days are long gone me thinks, but that doesn't mean we dont get the occassional fun night or fling, and we should value what is GOOD in our lives and not fester on what we "think" we're missing out on....all those "happy" relationships are full of atrocities and closterphobiIng tendencies, over bearing, controlling issues...that being on your own disolves you of....so chill mun.

St. Dickeybird said...

Like Mitzzee said, most of us are going through this. And the "happy folk" are just hiding their issues.
Go out this weekend, have a beer and a bj, and smile!

sirbarrett said...

I think the lowered expectations just come as a result of processing those scraps of paper and wanting to recreate the bliss that they once inspired.

I don't think it's so bad to lower expectations -at least not if you do it for just long enough to raise the expectations you have of those close to you, or get enough that you're good to go for another bout of loneliness.

Remember: we're still young, free and live in a democratic society!

You'll have lots of time for sombre sentimentality when you're in your seventies.

Adorable said...

I agree with Barrett. It's OK to lower your expectations, if you are keeping true to yourself.

Dead Robot said...

Maybe you should stay in town for Pride, put a big sign over your head of all your likes and dislikes and then walk around.

Self esteem stays intact (somewhat... well moreso than a stolen moment with a cheating goofball), at least you'd get a cheap one night stand.

You might get media exposure if you put your web URL on there too.

Miss Thistle said...

I missed you Sattie :(

Phronk said...

Love and sex are overrated. It's best to lust only after material posessions.

tworabbitshow said...

Hey, some people build a whole life together around lowered expectations and tiny scraps of intimacy.

Pablo said...

Whoa!

Jason said...

At least we're having nice weather (44 C).

Adorable said...

We're having nice f#@king hot weather!!!!

Jason said...

I love it when my housemates like to do lots of cooking and laundry when it's 45C with the humidex.

Salem said...

That's nothing. I had one that decided to make jars and jars of preserves.

Butchieboy said...

Ok, fucker. Post something new.

Pablo said...

So, are you still taking it? haha